I wonder what to say here that won't sound all f****d up or sound like I don't care about what I did to get here (prison). Because I do care. I did some really messed up s**t and I will not try to make it smaller that it was.

So, with the case that I got, I bet you are thinking, "Why the heck even do this". Well, the truth is that I cannot contact the person that I hurt, not even to apologize - unless that person contacts me first, and that hasn't happened yet. This, more than anything, had made it difficult for me to understand fully the harm that I have caused. I have studied the subject and am doing all I can to make sure that I never do this again. I knew then, and know now, that what I did was wrong and I do not blame anyone for my actions. I accept full responsibility. No one is to blame but me. I want to change; I don't want to hurt anyone ever again.

But it is hard in here. I have a life sentence, so the State feels that I am not worthy of help. Then, to the officers and inmates, I am scum and I won't go into detail about the things that have happened to me because of this. Not now.

What I am trying to do with this site is to offer something to people out there. Maybe I can help someone in some way. Maybe in this way I can find some sort of healing. The only thing that I can offer to you is my experience and insights and the fact that I expect nothing from you. If you just want to vent at me and tell me what a piece of c**p I am, I will listen. If you want to try and understand why I did what I did, I will try and help you do that. If you want to understand this problem and the bigger picture, I will do my best to show you.

This is for me - a way to give back to the society that I forever lessened by the wrong that I did. Email me or come back and read my blog (I will add to it every 2 weeks or so) in which I will tell my own story and offer to you some insights into this type of crime that haunts us. Maybe we can figure out a way to end it for good.

Always,
The Unforgiven - Luke